Live Life To The Fullest

It's been so hard

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 18:48:23 GMT

Hey there .. I know I haven't updated in a long time. Sorry about all that crizap. Anyways had a roug couple days :) Been thinking about crazy shit, that I shouldn't be thinking about. It was pretty much about how everything in the world dies, nothing lives forever, and that's a terrible thing, but it's inevitable, and i came to the conclusion, that i'm here and alive so I need to make the best of it.

8.15.2006, will be 4months for Anthony and I

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 07:24:34 GMT

I hate the fact that I can't fall asleep until 4am now <\b>

Happy 4th

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 22:48:30 GMT

Hey everyone :) Just wanted update really fast and wish everyone a happy 4th of July. I hope everyone is doing great. <3. If you noticed I haven't updated near as much that's because Anthony is home <333 Take Care

For A Minute There

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 02:40:29 GMT

...I thought you were worth my time ...

Hey !!! less than 24 hours until Anthony comes home I am crazy excited <33. I love that boy sooo much. I can't believe I met him through myspace. I think it's even more silly how I went to school with him, but I never ever ran into him or heard of him. Odd. I believe. Anyways, onto my day.

Lets see, I posted an entry when I was getting ready to leave to head to work to get my paycheck. Well I was kind of disappointed by it, but oh well. It got me some neat items. I will tell you what I bought in a second, I just got a text message. Aww, the text message was from Anthony ( who else ) and it said "We're going to be happily married one day". He is the best person ever. I am soo incredibly happy. All right, I got off track.

* Things that I bought today *

- Cartel - Chroma
- Rookie Of The Year - The GoodNight Moon
- A Black Comforter
- A Green Fitted Sheet ( I was just looking over the list and "Sheet" said "Shit" so I had to fix it)
- 3 White pillow Cases
- A Poster of "The Used"
- Two shirts
- I filled up my gas tank
- New work shoes
- A Loofa
- Body Wash
- Toothpaste
- Perfume - Cool Water
- Fingernail Polish
- Lunch (Mc.Donalds)

Well, I think that's pretty much it. I want the other Cartel CD it was only $9.99. I should have gotten it, goodness I am silly sometimes <333. I am on moms computer. Today was a good day. My truck is running GREAT. I hope it lasts me until Feb. Mom wants to buy a new car but that's when she's going to be able to get the new car, and I am pretty damn sure that I can wait until then. That way, I know who drove the car, how to drive it. What exactly is wrong with it, ( which isn't anything ), and it only has $94,000 miles on it, as of right now. Probably won't be much more than that when Feb. comes around. <333. Hrm. Lets see, I painted my toe nails today. I need to take a shower before I got to bed, I didn't take one today, I only got my hair wet. I miss my Anty. Damn Cartel is such a wonderful band. I don't think there's anything else going on. I think dinner is almost done, so I am going to go. Honestly, life is beautiful right now and I couldn't be happier.

I love you Anthony Michael Ortiz , Forever !!

Have a wonderful night Everyone !!!!!!!

Don't be the one

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 15:21:20 GMT

... To Fall out of line ...

Morning. How's it going? Pretty good here. I am surprised that I am not sill sleeping. Odd. I even was awake till like 1ish. Well I get paid today, I hope it's more than $258. I have stuff to do. lol. Well I am going to get ready have a good day everyone

What if I fell to the floor ..

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 04:27:25 GMT

.. What would you do ? ..

Hello. Well it's about that time for my daily entry <3. It's 12:20 am. Just got home from work a few minutes ago .. Guess what ?! Anthony comes home tomorrow So I was at work just thinking about stuff, and it sort of hit me all at once, that maybe it's because I miss Anthony so much, but I just felt incredibly alone , like we weren't even together, and I didn't like that feeling at all, my face got red and hot. I almost felt sick. It was not a good feeling. But, I talked to him and he said feeling was sort of mutal. I still love him of course. I just forgot what it's like to be in his arms. It's been a while. I don't like it. Well work was good. <3. I waited 20 minutes in the subway line, that was just silly. Only one person working. Those people suck Hrm. My back is starting to hurt from sitting like this and i'm very very sleepie. I am debating wether or not to eat something before I go to bed. I get paid today . Horray <33 Moolah. Well I suppose that's it for now, I am going to get something to eat and go to bed.

Good Night all

Damnit, I cant wait to cuddle and kiss you Anthony. I love you

Damnit, I am updating!!!

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 19:31:29 GMT

... Just for the record the weather today is slighty sarcastic ...

Well I have decided from this day and time, I am no longer going to eat yuckie food, I am going to eat healthy, I am going to stop drinking soda. I am GOING to walk and do crunches like crazy. I am going to get in shape if it kills me, which, I hope it doesn't ;) <3. I am GOING TO DO THIS. It's what I want. I want to be able to wear a size 5 or 7 jeans, and a small shirt. Hopefully. That is really want I want. They get all the cute clothes and I don't want to feel like I am morbidly obese. Even though, I know i'm not.

I know that if I want this to work, I have to WORK at it and damnit, I am going to.

I miss you and I love you Anthony <3

2 Days Baby

Even if you listen

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 17:58:31 GMT

.. I never have much to say ..

Amy H - Hey sweetie. I hope you're all right. I am sorry to hear about what happened. At least it made you realize something about Kevin and I hope you soon see that you're better off without him <3.

Chelsea - Hey pumpkin <3 If you read this sometime, your comment about me being a weather person is funny because along time ago, that's what I wanted to do <3.

Anyways, how is everyone doing? I am all right. It's raining and it's beautiful. I like when it rains / thunders and it's still daylight outside. The sky isn't dark or anything. It's 1:49pm right now. I have to work @ 6pm tonight. I am not sure if I wrote that last night. Well apparently I didn't <3. I was supposed to work 2-10pm last night, but they had to cut me out at 8:30pm, if they didn't I would have gone over 41 hours for the one week. Tough stuff. I need to clean my room a little bit. =). I am watching Roseanne, but it's on mute. I am listening to Cartel and watching the rain. It's soo pretty. I talked to Anthony today. He was in Washington DC <3. Mom and I bought our plane tickets for Pennnslyvania last night. We purchased, mine, anthony's, and his moms <3 $697. not too bad. The 1st one we went through was $1,000. Pfft, we went through Delta the 2nd time. :) Much better deal.( Obviously). I hope I am in a good mood tonight. I hope everyone is doing well <3. It's soo bright outside now, I bet there is a rainbow out there somewhere!! Since it just rained and all that jazz <333. I just hope it's not soo hott outside . I hate when it rains and it's all muggy and stuffies. It's silly. I promise <3

To anyone that has been reading my entries lately. I am sorry that they're soo long. Nothing really important happens in my daily life. haha. Well I am afraid that I don't exactly have much more to say so I am going to go. I hope everyone has a great day

2 Days until Anthony comes home !!

Stop Now

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 04:10:49 GMT

... Well it's 12:03am. I had to stay awake, to make a new entry under a new day. I didn't want to excede 2 entries in one day. That would have just been silly. I am very very tired. I want to sleep, but I figured it was best for me to stay awake for a while long instead of going to bed earlier and waking up at 6am. I want to get 8 hours of sleep. I really really want to start exercising. I looked at myself today in the mirror and I just felt disgusted. I know that i'm not fat, but I am WAYYY out of shape and I don't know how much longer I can take it. I don't think I should write anything down on like a to do list because that just doesn't seem to be working. I never do it, so it's like I make the list, the night before and then the next day, I look @ it and i'm soo disappointed. So maybe if I didn't put my expectations up there, I would subconciously do it. That, I would exercise and stuffies, instead of being restricted to doing certain things. I don't even know if that made sense. I want to do this with Anthony, but I don't know how we're going to go about doing it. He said his weight is bothering him also, so I figured we could do it together, motivate each other. That would be good. I just don't know where to start. Oh well. I am soo tired, I think I should go to bed. I am being cranky..

Have a good night / morning everyone <3.

I love you Anthony ( I know you don't read this, but that's okay )

You get what you deserve ...

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 16:35:02 GMT

Good Afternoon everyone. Here I am on momma's computer. That's where I will be updating from now on until I get my computer fixed, I think all it needs is a power supply and those aren't really that much. I just have to figure out what kind I need *Shrug* I miss my Anthony like crazy. I can not wait to see him <33. It's going to be so nice, just to hug him. Grries. Well I have slept a lot the past few days and I hate it. I wish I could be active or something instead of sleeping all the time. I wish I would have went to warped tour, but the only reason I didn't go was because I can not stand being out in the heat like that, I get really sick. I don't think I am the only one that gets sick or whatever <333. It's currently 12:18pm now. I have to work 2-10pm, as I mentioned in a previous entry. Amy, thanks for the comment. I hope you're all right. It's soo dark in my room. I think I am going to buy some fruit before I go to work. I love fruit, it's soo yummies. I get paid in 2 days, and then I see Anthony in 3 days <3. It's exciting. Currently 13% remaining on my mom's laptop battery. <3. Ohhh.. So if I save $150 from each paycheck until the September trip, I will have $643 to take up there with me. That's a pretty decent amount, I think <3. Goodness, Cartel is such a wonderful band.

Well I really need to start losing weight or something, it's getting unbearable, but you know how many times I have said that? It's like I have done it once before, and honestly I noticed a difference, it's like why can't I just do that again? Willpower, maybe. Who freaking knows. I don't like cellulite. It's yuckie and I really want a flat stomach, but all of that is something I have to work for. That might be it. It's like it's not just going to happen over night, although I wish it would and i'm sure a lot of other people wish it would aswell. *Shrug* That's part of life though, having to work for EVERYTHING. That's okay though, shows appreciation. <3. I think it would be easier to exercise if Anthony did it with me. That way we would be both doing it for our health and what not . Hrm.

--

Yuckie, I need to take a shower, I feel gross. Also, is it wrong that everyday I like to know the chance of rain we're going to have? I think i'm weird *Gasp* Since, I typed that I decided to check. It's mostly cloudy today and 30% chance of rain today and tonight, and tomorrow it's a 40% chance <3. Well, I guess I should get going to the shower and what not.

Have a good day / night everyone

<3

P.s You know what I was thinking about earlier? How when people get married, well I guess before they get married, they have a bachelorette party and whatnot, and that usually involves strippers of some sort? Well in all honesty, I don't want that @ all. I want the party, just not naked people. I think I would be exteremly uncomfortable and I would rather go somewhere really nice and just enjoy lunch and presents <3. I think that is most acceptable. I don't want a "penis" cake and all that other crap you hear about. I think that is just extremely perverted and what not <3. I just wanted to add that. I gotta get ready for work. Buh Byez <3

On Momma's computer

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 05:42:41 GMT

Hello <3. How is everyone doing? I hope everything is well. I noticed that I haven't updated in a really long time and the last time that I did update was around December. <3. Well A lot of things have changed, I still don't have a car, but I did pass my GED Test and I got my "High Shcool Diploma" which made me really happy. I thought I would never be able to do it. *sigh*. I also am still working @ the movie theatre I do love that job, but sometimes , since I work with young people, it gets annoying and I feel soo much older and just left out of everything, but that's okay, because I know if they were to invite me to something anyways, I wouldn't go, but I think it's the fact of being asked. *Shrug* I don't know :<) Anyways, I have a new boyfriend, who I have been dating since April 15th. His name is Anthony Ortiz and he is simply wonderful. It's a wonder how I made it all this time without him. Yes, I am in love for the very first time and it's the greatest thing EVER. He is currently on vacation until July 1st. He left the 23rd, he's up north with family and such. I hope he is having a wonderful time. I am getting very sleepy. I just wanted to start back up with LJ again <3. I am currently watching "That's so Raven" except it's on mute. Kitty is asleep on my shelf. Silly kitty. Hrm, I don't think I have much more to write about, ohhh my computer died, that's why I am on my moms lap top and man, I gotta get me one of these things, they are great. <3. So just portable and everything, I love it <3333 77% remaning on her battery, so I am going to get going. Man, it's soo hott in here. I was freezing earlier. I have to work today 2-10pm. <3. Then I am off Thursday and Friday ( We get paid on friday ). Then Saturday I work 11-6pm ( The 1st )Anthony is supposed to get home around 7pm <3. I am soo happy that I work that shift. I was hoping I would either have off that day, or work that shift and I got lucky <333. Rawr. Panic! rocks my effing socks. Ohhhh a great band is Cartel, I am going to buy their cd when I get paid on Friday. I also want Rookie Of The Year .

I really don't think that I have much more to write about. I hope everyone has a great night and day tomorrow. I wonder how many people showed up for the Superman movie @ 10pm last night. <3. I know we had like 20 something tickets sold. So maybe we had a good turn out, you never know. Tomorrow is the opening day, so lets hope we're busy, I work 2-10 and I want that whole shift.

Good Night Everyone

I love you Anthony Oritz.

P.s I am happy

You're still playing these games

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 00:03:06 GMT

Well I finally talked to Michael last night. He apparently fell asleep at Erins house for 45 minutes. I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt and trust him. It's very possible that he was just bored and fell asleep =) Anyways. I worked today 11-6pm. I'm sleepy, but I must wait until later to go to bed. So I have been thinking about things latelty and one thing is that since i've been dating Michael, i'm so damn bored. I try to think of something to make me jealous because we don't argue. We don't get mad at each other. It pisses me off. lol. I trust him. I just don't have to worry about him and I feel like something is wrong, but everything is normal and i'm not worried. Damnit, I feel like something is missing. Ughhh lol. However, it's perfectly normal. *Sigh* Not used to dating someone that is good to me. I feel like I can do things on my own and I don't have to break up with him because I want to go back to school or something. It's rather refreshing <3. So I have a list of goals, well it's something, not much <3

Goals

1.) To pay for my G.E.D and start taking prep classes before the test.

2.) To start saving as much money as I can to look for a new car / truck.

Yes, So that is all I have so far, but those are rational goals. Not something that I wont be able to keep <3 So all is well

Precious and Fragile Things

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 00:11:54 GMT

...Need Special Handling...

Hey :) It's 7:04pm. I just got home a few minutes ago. I went to the movies and watched Rent, it was fanstastic. I almost cried 3x. :( I was the only one in the theatre, as I usually am. I'm really glad I went to see it. <3 I woke up around 1:47pm. I was tired. I stayed up as late as I could. I watched some Tv with kitty and we then went to sleep. After I woke up, I did the dishes, cleaned my room, took out the trash, took a shower and got ready to go see Rent :). I almost didn't see it cause it started at 3:45pm, but I still had time. Yay, I also bought some Twizzlers and a $3.75 soda. <3. After the movie I had to go pee and on the way to the bathroom, I seen Sam, Dustin and Emily. Now, i'm not liking Sam so much anymore. She just seems kind of stuck up lately. Like I seen her and she was like "Eww". Granted, she may have been just kidding, but pfft whatever. It doesn't matter. Mom is currently cooking dinner. Country Fried Steak and Gravy. This is probably my favorite dinner. heh. Well Michael is at Erins house, looking at her car or something like that. I guess she got new furniture and she wanted him to see the house and what not :) So tis all good. This is the 1st relationship that I have ever ever ever had where I didn't worry about the person, but I still liked them 110%. I don't call him all the time and what not. I just let him do his thing and I do mine and we meet in the middle. Funny thing is, that's how I always wanted my relationships to work out but they never did when I tried to make things happen like that. Instead, it just happens by nature, not by force. I am very proud of myself. We've almost been together a month. It will be a month on December 14th :) Yay for me. I have not thought about breaking up, I have not had any doubts or anything. <333 I am happy :) :) Well that's pretty much it .. Good Night

..Dont Be Afraid ..

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 06:51:54 GMT

So it's 1:44am. Despite what time it says on my live journal. I worked today 6-Close. Which I just got home a few minutes ago. I am totally in love with the song that is listed <3. It's amazing. Everytime I tell someone I like the song they're like , umm okay Lisa. Apparently i'm not normal, but that's okay. The song is just so beautiful. I could listen to it all day :) Makes me want to fall asleep. Well I was supposed to see Michael at 7:45pm, but I didn't. Instead he surprised me by being there early <3 I had the biggest smile on my face. It made my night. Even though I have no idea what he did all night. Heh. That's part of trusting someone though. I guess. He said he will be home all night. *Shrug* I suppose. Well I seen a Bewitched shirt, in the back room so I called Dennis and asked him what he was going to do with it. He said , use it for a rag. I'm like in that case, can I have it? He laughed and said yes. I also got a one "Free Buffet" thing for Golden Corral. Seems tempting <3. My mom also packed my lunch today, I had a turkey sandwich, chips, jello, cheese, macaroni salad. It was good stuff. <3 She packed it in a gift bag, everyone like my "Lunch Box" though. Surprising. Well I also had that stupid meeting this morning at 9am. I came home and passed out. I was soo tired, and still am tired.

Another thing. I hate when people only talk to you, when they want to know something. I mean if you haven't talked to them in a while, and just all of a sudden without even saying hi, they ask what something was about or who it was. It kind of pisses me off. Nosey people. Yeah, so I wanted green skittles this morning, and Nicole had Skittles and She handed Orange and Green to dustin and said give the green to Lisa, needless to say he didn't give them to me. So throughout the whole meeting, I was complaining. It pisses me off because I know damn well if I had something and they wanted some, i'd share. That's just the type of person that I am.. Grrrrrrr .. Some people I swear.

Anyways, this entry is about done. I missed writing in it. It gave me something to do..

Good Night

I'll make up for this, I swear

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 01:10:01 GMT

.. I'll use your light to guide the way, cause all I think about is you ..

Yeah, well I worked today. 11-5:15. Pfft. I'm soo tired. I don't know why. Mike's supposed to be coming over. It pisses me off, cause it seems like the only reason he wants to come over is to get in our stupid hot tub, hell at least I get to see him. I mean, I haven't seen him since Sat, and he doesn't live that far away 10-15 minute drive. I don't know what his problem is. It bothers me, a lot.

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 07:09:43 GMT

Ah but of course. The Trusty ol' live journal. I never update this damn thing, I'm bored it's almost 2:10am. I'm hella tired. I slept for a little while around 8pm. Then Mike called me <3 He's wonderful. He is my boyfriend, and will be forever <3. The most wonderful person that I have ever dated. I'm so lucky to have him :) :) I really don't know what to write. I am pretty much updating because I got the new Bat layout, which is pretty neat <3

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 15:12:44 GMT

Goodness, I haven't updated in a while, maybe i'll do that tonight :) Who knows :) Things are going well, tough but going :) What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 03:17:52 GMT

[x] Name: Lisa
[x] Age: 20
[x] Current Location: Inverness, Florida
[x] Eye Color: Teal.
[x] Hair Color: Brow.
[x] Height: 5'2 .
[x] Right or Lefty: Right
[x] Zodiac Sign: Cancer

-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: Meh
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: Meh. I gotta go to work
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Teeth
[x] Your best physical feature: Eyes or smile
[x] Your bedtime: Whenever i'm tired.
[x] Your most missed memory: Being a little kid .
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: coke.
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
[x] Single or group dates: Single
[x] Adidas or Nike: DC Shoes
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla.
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: nope.
[x] Curse: yes.
[x] Take a shower everyday: sometimes twice.
[x] Have any crushes?: Yes
[x] Who are they: Annon.
[x] Do you think you've been in love? No
[x] Want to go to college: Sometimes
[x] Like high school: I didn't finish
[x] Want to get married: yes.
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes.
[x] Believe in yourself: Never.
[x] Get motion sickness: Never
[x] Think you're a health freak: lol no
[x] Get along with your parents: Yes
[x] Like thunderstorms: Most def.
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: Nope
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: Nope
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Yes
[x] Cried during a Movie?: Of course.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: lol no
[x] Had an imaginary friend: Nope
[x] Cut your hair: Yes.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: Um gross
[x] Been caught "doing something": Close
[x] Been called a tease: Yes
[x] Gotten beaten up?: Never.
[x] Been in a fight: Never.
[x] Shoplifted: Yes.
-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: 25
[x] Numbers of Children: 1 or 2.
[x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: Beach
[x] How do you want to die?: in my sleep, peacefully & painlessly.
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: Vet. or doing something with computers
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: Germany
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------
[x] Best eye color: Blue or Green
[x] Best hair color: Light or dark hair
[x] Short or long hair: doesn't matter.
[x] Best height: 5'11
[x] Best weight: Doesnt matter, as long as they aren't morbidly obese.
[x] Best first date location: movies.
[x] Best first kiss location: My bed.
-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
[x] Number of Boyfriends/Girlfriends: 2
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: 3
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 1
[x] Number of CDs that I own: about Maybe 50
[x] Number of piercing: 2
[x] Number of tattoos: None .
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? None
[x] Number of scars on my body: 2
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: None
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: Something that smells good
[x] Fav Color(s): Teal and Brown
[x] Day/Night: Night.
[x] Summer/Winter: Winter
[x] Lace or Satin: Satin
[x] Fave Cartoon: Recess
[x] Fave Food: All <3
[x] Fave Movies: Finding Nemo
[x] Fave sport: n/a.
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: it's very rare that I do
[x] Your friends: yes.
[x] Santa Claus: no.
[x] Tooth Fairy: no.
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes.
[x] Angels: possibly.
[x] Ghosts: yes.
[x] UFO's: perhaps.
[x] God: No.
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: No
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: NOPE.
[x] Do you like anyone?: Of course.
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: I dont have too many friends.
[x] Are you close to any family member?: Momma
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: Being happy
[x] Worst Feeling?: Knowing you care the world for someone and they don't feel the same.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 15:26:41 GMT

UPDATE FOR MEGHAN

I LOVE YOU MEGHAN

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 02:29:40 GMT

Hey =) So today was a good day. I got up around noon, but at 1st I didn't feel that great, so I layed back down. Finally got up around 1:30. I took forever to get dressed because of my stupid sunburn. So I ended up not wearing a bra, but I went to Wal*mart and got a strapless bra. Much Much Much better.. lol Wo0o0o then I bought some new undies and an oil filter. Robert changed my oil for me <3. I can tell a huge difference. He also fixed the connection to my battery or w/e. It's sooo nice to be able to turn on my brights with out my whole truck pretty much shutting off lol <3. I have to work tomrrow 12-5. Tomorrow is thursday , then friday parents are going out of town. My back is starting tooo itch. Yeah, dont eat those new chicken sammiches they aren't that great. The ones from Mc.Donalds..I guess that's about it for this entry..Buh Byez

Werd

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 03:56:34 GMT

This is for Andrew, because he truly is awesome

Enjoy <3

Owies in a box

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 21:50:42 GMT

Hey Hey ... The time is 5:49pm. I'm sored, i'm hott, and i'm tired. I worked today 12-5pm. Roar. It was a good shift. I called mom and asked her to bring some Aloe stuffies home.. Goodness. it hurts. but i'll be otays.. I think i'm going to nap until 8 or so. . Bye Bye

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 04:24:50 GMT

Sara Evans - I keep looking

Back when I was young
Couldn't wait to grow up
Get away and get out on my own
And looking back now
Ain't it funny how
I've been trying to get back home, yeah

When my low self esteem
Needs a man loving me
And I find me a perfect catch
Then I see my friends
Having wild weekends
Then I don't wanna get quite so attached
Just as soon as I get what I want
I get unsatisfied
Good is good but could be better

I keep looking, I keep looking for
I keep looking for something more
I always wonder what's on the other side
Of the number two door
I keep looking
Looking for something more

Well, the straight haired girls
They all want curls
And the brunettes wanna be blonde
It's your typical thing
You got ying you want yang
It just goes on and on
They say, hey, it's only human
To never be satisfied
Well I guess that I'm as human as the next one

Oh, I keep looking
I keep looking for
I keep looking for something more
I always wonder what's on the other side
Of the number two door
Yeah, I keep looking
Looking for something more

Just as soon as I get what I want
I get unsatisfied
Hey, good is good but could be better

I keep looking
I keep looking for
I keep looking for something more
I always wonder what's on the other side
Of the number two door
I keep looking
Looking for something more
Oh, looking for something more

... =) ...

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 01:56:26 GMT

So today was neato . I went out on the boat with Garrett. I had a ton of fun. We went to Kings Bay and went swimming. It was nice. I however, and really really burnt. I'll post pictures in a few. So yeah, that pretty much sums up my day. Was out there till about 4 and then came home.. =) I wish my parents had some aloe, but they don't poop heads. I hope I get a good pay check on tuesday. I need money. Rawrz. um.. I dunno i'm tired.

...Pictures of me burnt ...

( My back )

( meh, the rest of me )

....How Could I have known, that you'd ever say goodbye ...

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:02:00 GMT

Hey there =) It's 12:59 pm. I wasn't supposed to wake up until 1:30pm, but that's okay. I tried calling matt again and stuff. He hasn't answered. Everyone has gotten me to believe that all he wants is sex. I'm not for that, at all. So I think i'm just going to back off. I'm not just going to go whoring myself around you know? Cause that would be well, stupid. I should clean my room before I have to work. It's not that messy =). I'm really hungry. I work today 3-10pm. Wo0o then tomorrow ( sunday ) I'm going out on the boat with Garrett. I hope he brings food, cause i'll be hungry lol. :) All right, that's pretty much it for this entry <3